I’m a little freaked out by myself. For a while now God has been teaching me about discernment. Discernment has always been considered one of my spiritual gifts, and in the past 6 months or so, I’ve had quite a few instances where I have been shocked with what God has revealed to me. The first case had to do with some friends. God revealed some things about their struggles to me, and I started praying for them. They later opened up and told me that what I had “heard” about each of them was true. It was kind of scary.

Then, I’ve also felt it happen around other people and with my kids. Most recently with my kids, I’ve had several instances where I felt like I needed to do something or offer them something, and then once I followed through I realized why. Its really strange to me.

Anyways, on Thursday night / Friday morning, my daughter was having a tough time sleeping. She had an upset stomach. Once she fell asleep, my son woke up. I was awake in bed after my son had fallen back to sleep, and I felt like I was awake because I needed to pray, and I needed to pray for our country’s safety. I also felt like I was being called to fast something the next day so that I could pray for New York and our country. I honestly thought I was crazy, but I did it. I must admit that it was kind of half-hearted though, because I really thought it was just some kind of middle-of-the-night panic attack. So, last night I happened to check the news (I never watch it anymore – it scares me too much), and I saw all that is going on in New York and that there’s a threat right now. It really freaked me out. Now I’m feeling bad that I didn’t do it with more heart. I feel like such a scumbag. I really should’ve trusted and given it 100%

In much more frivilous news…. It is chilly this morning! According to the forecast, we’re supposed to get snow on Monday. That’s crazy! First snow is usually Halloween weekend. Brrrr! I’m looking forward to it though. They said that people at 9000′ (altitude) could get up to 2 feet. We’re at 6550, and we’ll probably just get a few flurries. It’ll still be nice.

Joe is hiking Pike’s Peak. Here’s a picture of it from our front porch. Right now its not snow covered though. The snow looks melted off as of this morning, but I know that means there’s still plenty of it up there. Its just not 6′ deep or anything (I hope!). Its going to be totally covered in snow after the storm comes. Pike’s Peak is over 14,000 ft. high, so it’ll be quite a hike for him. I’m just praying for safety.

My kids are obviously very good at doing what marketers dream they will… Yesterday we received a newsletter in the mail from the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo. As soon as my son found it, he decided that we need to go to the zoo today so that we can check up on all of the animals. The newsletter has pictures of many of the animals with little news blurbs, and they are begging to go. I think I’ll probably take them, since we have an annual pass. At least we get our money’s worth out of it.

Oh, and if you have a chance to say a quick prayer, I’m leading Sunday School tonight (for the first time) for the 2 1/2 – 3 1/2 year old class. I’m a little nervous just because it is something new. I have been so blessed by the teachers there and what they have taught my son, so I’m happy to give back, but I’m still a little scared. I’ve been the assistant in this class quite a few times, but never in charge. I hope it goes well!

I’ll update later. Have a great day, everyone!

PS When Joe saw me reading this book, he said “I really hope that’s fiction and not a self-help book.”, LOL.

A-Basin is making snow. Joe is psyched. So – to all of Joe’s friends who read my blog – it is time to start saving your money so that he can take you snowboarding!

I want to get a grain mill. I know it seems crazy, but hey, I already make my own soy and almond milk… I bake my own bread… I have a sourdough starter going in my kitchen… I make my own granola bars… Grinding a little grain can’t be that big of a step. I’m so crunchy now. Matt’s allergies kind of made it non-negotiable, since most prepackaged products contain milk (or at least casein), but still… It works out well that God paired Matt and I together, because I love this earthy kind of stuff, and his body needs it. Isn’t it cool how that works out?

So even though Joe is giving me the same raised-eyebrow expressions that I saw when I told him I was switching to cloth diapers, he seems relatively willing. I guess that’s why God appointed us women as “keepers of the home”, right Candice? Hehehehe. Sorry, I couldn’t resist.

I’m going to go read a bit. The aforementioned Candice borrowed my church history book, so I’ve switched over to A General Introduction to the Bible. Its actually quite good, and much more in-depth than the name would suggest. I think that the same author (Geisler) wrote When Skeptics Ask, which was an interesting book. Both of them are a nice reminder of the stuff that I learned at PBA in my classes. Why wasn’t I a religion major? It seemed so much less applicable back then, but now I would love it!

Oh well! Good night everyone

Ugh. Today could’ve been better I’m acting super sensitive. I’m acting pregnant.

Remember a few weeks ago (maybe months?) I blogged that an old friend had been on the site? Well, that friend and I haven’t talked since last New Year’s Day. I had called her back on January 1st to apologize for being so immature and mean back when we were close (which was about 4-5 years ago). I had a lot to apologize for… I was gossipy. I backstabbed. I convinced myself at the time that I was doing it to help her out, but that was just an excuse for my behavior. I completely regret it and acknowledge how terrible I was, but I’m not sure that she really knows that… I tried to tell her though. I’ve asked for God’s forgiveness, but I feel bad that I messed things up so bad.

Anyways, so I was talking to a mutual friend who said that the above mentioned friend said that I was basically a worse person now than I used to be. This was based on reading my blog. Ironic, because of all of the reasons that I just listed for why I really sucked back then, but I guess she thinks that I sound too conceited now. I know that my real friends who read this understand my sarcasm and that I’m just being silly, but I guess she took it seriously, and that made me sad. I was kind of caught off guard because I felt sad when I heard this. I didn’t expect to care. Not in a bad way, just in a “I know she doesn’t know me now and doesn’t understand” kind of way. (sigh) I think I’m over it now. I think its just leftover sadness as I remember how sucky of a friend I was. (sigh again) Writing that was cathartic.

So then tonight I had a mystery shop. Its a super easy one that I’ve done a couple of times now. They just give you 3 fast food restaurants and you go see what their posted hours are. If they don’t have them posted, then you go in and ask. So, all 3 places gave me a hard time about asking for the hours (none of them had the hours posted). The manager lady at Wendy’s even refused to give me the hours at first and kept rolling her eyes at me. I was being totally nice! As a matter of fact, I went out of my way to be super nice. Finally she gave me the hours, which is a ridiculous thing to withhold because its PUBLIC information. Businesses normally WANT people to know when they’re open. It was just silly.

So, I came home feeling a bit bummed. There was no reason for them to be mean. Their company hired me to do it. Yeesh.

But then Matt was all excited and asked me to come to the window so he could show me something. There was a beautiful orange cloud over the mountains and looking at the pretty cloud with my amazing son made my day a lot better.

ETA: Joe just reminded me that I’m a better person everyday and that I shouldn’t care about my old friend (who doesn’t know me now) or the crazy lady at Wendys. I’m feeling all better now.

Man, I love this album. I’ve bought it twice, and it always gets broken. That means I should be able to legally download it, right? I have the rights to it twice over… I think I need to go fetch myself a copy!

And now for my random quiz of the day:

Which Hairstyle Suits Your Personality?

Fight
Pigtails
You’re the type of person who is very snappy, and
likes too play the tough one. You have a fiery
personality, and your friends just can’t help
nut admire your sense of leadership and
confidence, especially the way that you always
seem to get what you want. You’re very smart
and you use that to you’r advantage when you’re
arguing with someone who makes you mad. You’re
an athletic person, and , being all tough and
snappy, you love to show off, admit it! But,
tough and cool as you may act, everyone knows
that you’re still very kind at heart!

What hairstyle suits your personality?
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Hmm, maybe I’ll have to wear pigtails today. I wore them yestreday for a while, but they were french braid ponytails. That still counts, right?