Mean people
Ugh. Today could’ve been better I’m acting super sensitive. I’m acting pregnant.
Remember a few weeks ago (maybe months?) I blogged that an old friend had been on the site? Well, that friend and I haven’t talked since last New Year’s Day. I had called her back on January 1st to apologize for being so immature and mean back when we were close (which was about 4-5 years ago). I had a lot to apologize for… I was gossipy. I backstabbed. I convinced myself at the time that I was doing it to help her out, but that was just an excuse for my behavior. I completely regret it and acknowledge how terrible I was, but I’m not sure that she really knows that… I tried to tell her though. I’ve asked for God’s forgiveness, but I feel bad that I messed things up so bad.
Anyways, so I was talking to a mutual friend who said that the above mentioned friend said that I was basically a worse person now than I used to be. This was based on reading my blog. Ironic, because of all of the reasons that I just listed for why I really sucked back then, but I guess she thinks that I sound too conceited now. I know that my real friends who read this understand my sarcasm and that I’m just being silly, but I guess she took it seriously, and that made me sad. I was kind of caught off guard because I felt sad when I heard this. I didn’t expect to care. Not in a bad way, just in a “I know she doesn’t know me now and doesn’t understand” kind of way. (sigh) I think I’m over it now. I think its just leftover sadness as I remember how sucky of a friend I was. (sigh again) Writing that was cathartic.
So then tonight I had a mystery shop. Its a super easy one that I’ve done a couple of times now. They just give you 3 fast food restaurants and you go see what their posted hours are. If they don’t have them posted, then you go in and ask. So, all 3 places gave me a hard time about asking for the hours (none of them had the hours posted). The manager lady at Wendy’s even refused to give me the hours at first and kept rolling her eyes at me. I was being totally nice! As a matter of fact, I went out of my way to be super nice. Finally she gave me the hours, which is a ridiculous thing to withhold because its PUBLIC information. Businesses normally WANT people to know when they’re open. It was just silly.
So, I came home feeling a bit bummed. There was no reason for them to be mean. Their company hired me to do it. Yeesh.
But then Matt was all excited and asked me to come to the window so he could show me something. There was a beautiful orange cloud over the mountains and looking at the pretty cloud with my amazing son made my day a lot better.
ETA: Joe just reminded me that I’m a better person everyday and that I shouldn’t care about my old friend (who doesn’t know me now) or the crazy lady at Wendys. I’m feeling all better now.