Commitment?
Bellydancing class was great last night! I went ahead and bought the instrumental CD that my instructor sells so that I could have the music that goes with our choreography. I’m sure it sounds silly, but I really had a hard time deciding whether or not to buy it.
About 8 years ago, during my first year of college, I decided and told God that I didn’t want to listen to secular music anymore. It was after a really upsetting concert experience at a secular show, and I’m not even sure why I made that commitment to God. Its really a good example of my personality. I’m so extremist. I don’t even remember exactly what I said, but I know that it was a really serious vow and I’m scared to break it or disappoint God.
Anyways, I made this commitment and in recent years its really been a tough thing for me to decide what I can and cannot do. I’m all trapped in legalism of my own design. If secular music is out, how about commercial jingles on tv? How about kiddie music when that my children like? How about instrumental music? What if its classical? Its just ridiculous. I looked online for Christian middle-eastern music to bellydance to, but I finally decided that I was being legalistic about the whole instrumental music thing. I don’t want to let God down, and it seems so ridiculous.
At 17 I didn’t really consider that my little vow would mean that my kids couldn’t have a Laurie Berkner cd, and I really don’t want that for them. It was all just a reaction to one bad incident. (Sigh)
Anyways, back to my class… It was great! I’m really enjoying it and its nice to get out and do something fun and funky 
My class only has 1 week left, but my instructor invited me to her advanced beginner class, so I think I’ll probably take her up on that offer!
Well, I need to lay J down for her nap. I’m trying to clean like a madwoman today 