Well, that pretty much sums up life right now. My kids have this bug that’s been going around church. They’ll run a fever for a few hours and then be fine, and then have a fever again, and then be fine again… I’m praising God that there’s no other “symptoms”, although they are both cranky and whiny. I know its just that they feel miserable.
The way that I know is because I feel the exact same way At first I thought I was feeling crappy because of my 5-day stint on Wellbutrin, since it made me all dizzy and shaky, but now I think I just have whatever the kids have. Today at Barnes and Noble, life was great and then all of the sudden I felt woozy. I hope this passes quickly.
Some thunder just cracked outside, so of course M is freaking out. He hates thunder, and I wish I could help, but its not like I can control the weather. (sigh) Poor little guy.
I’m completely overextended right now and I know that I need to cut back on some activities, but I don’t want to quit any of them! I’ve never thought of myself as a person who couldn’t say no when others asked for help, but I am the kind person who can’t say no to myself. There’s just so much that I want to do! I’m in the midst of my marathon training and totally stressed about the fundraising. I think I may drop TNT and train on my own instead. That will be less stressful. We’re in 2 Bible groups, both which sometimes meet at our house. J wants to become “Life Group” leaders at church, and so do I, but that means hosting a group every week at my house. I want to help in leadership in the new MOPS group forming at church. I am working Vacation Bible School. I am in a million mommy groups, including 1 that I run. I need to keep my house clean, my kids happy, my husband satisfied. I want my kids to eat organic, homemade, fresh foods. I need time to take a break and focus on my million hobbies like GCM, knitting, crocheting, sewing, yoga, running, etc. I do web design work part-time and don’t want to let down my clients (2 of which have projects for me to start right now!). I have several sites to run. I just want to pull my hair out. No wonder I’ve been anxious and my doc wanted me on meds!!
So, I need to cut back, but I don’t know where. I just wish I could clone myself… That’s a scary thought, haha. Honestly, I love my life, but I’m afraid that all of these extra activities will cause me to be so busy that I’ll miss the enjoyable parts. The best part of life is the journey, right? I need to remember that…